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It had been a particularly hard day in the office. The phone rang incessantly, all the agents had to have brochures made and information researched "NOW" because they had a client coming in. and then Nothing I did was exactly what they wanted, something more, on reworded a little differently. Just one of those days when not even the sunshine was right and it was your fault.
By the time I got home, I was fit to be tired. Tired, angry, frustrated, I went into my home office to settle down a little bit. But that was a mistake as it gave me time to rerun the day over in my mind and that only made it worse.
Feeling totally useless, after what I had been through, seriously considered ending it all and never having to go through this ordeal again.. Not even God seemed to care.
That's, when I cried out, like most, 'Why me Lord' and the anger built. I sat and fumed some more and just kept getting angrier.
Finally I cried out Why? Lord do - you - even have a use for me?
His response was one simple word … 'Listen'
My mind got off the events of the day and, I "Listened". Nothing, … not a sound … not even the birds were singing. Nothing.
Well lot of good that did exactly how I felt nothing, useless, no good … and getting angrier.
Now I was not only mad at my employers, but I had a few questions for God too. I said "I hear Nothing" again the 'voice' and little sterner this time, "Listen!"
Again I "Listened" … still nothing. By now I had my 'second wind' and was ready for a fight.
I let Him have both barrels. "This is ridiculous I said. I've listened and the only thing I hear is my own breathing and heartbeat. …
He says "Exactly!" "I set the very rhythm of those two sounds, one even before you were born and the other the moment you were delivered. And you know, that over the years I have maintained them, despite your efforts, even during a war, while others stopped.' "As long as you can hear those two sounds, … I … have a use for you."
If, for no other purpose, than to hold up the banner of Jesus, so that others may use it as a 'guide on', He, has a use for you. |